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7月5日

A birthday party for two people! Come on in !!!!!

 
 
 
A birthday party for two people. Our space friend Ian (Prenin) will be 49
tomorrow. July 6 is his birthday. As for me, my birthday is July 7. But I
will not say my age, because pretty women are always without age.
Lol.
 
  
 
We have a lot of birthday drinks. Because we have a lot friends here. They have very
different tastes. So we have a wide variety of drinks for this birthday party... But I
can't say that Ian is so helpful for this party. Whenever I looked around, I can't see
him mostly. Hah, no Ian, no, please don't begin to eat the birthday cake!
 
 
 
Okay, luckily we have some other cakes too.
Ah Ian, ahhhh!!!!!
 
 
 
I think I will begin to drink a little. What about this?
 
 
And what about the presents? It may be a simple postcard sometimes. But sometimes
we are on top of the world with a nice gift. Look at that, a computer! And a black one!

 
 
Okay okay, no day dream! Pretty women buy the most expensive gifts for themselves always.
Sniff... Let's have a drink. Chin chin!
 
 
Now, this is the important part of the post. If you would
like to give a birthday present, what would it be for this
birthday party for two people? But please don't give a
joint one, because we may fight for it... The other thing,
what would like to listen in this party? And which famous
person would like to meet in this birthday party? Don't be
shy, I know most of them, hahahaha!!!!! We will have fun
till the morning. Then we will drink our special soups...
 
 
Happy Birthday to you Ian,
 
And Happy Birthday to me!
 
FOREVER YOUNG!
 
6月19日

A cat story / Happy Father's Day!


TABBY CAT - Ooo Zeynep meow, where have you been?..
 
ZEYNEP - Zeynep was busy dear. And sick... Hey, you look down. Didn't you glad to see me?
 
TABBY CAT - Miaowww, where is my delicious cheese? Or I agree for a few fried chicken wings too.
 
ZEYNEP - Ah, you are so sweet. I promise the next time.
 
TABBY CAT - Okay... But don't worry about that. I am not hungry. Summer is a good season to find some delicious foods around...
 
ZEYNEP - No, I would love to do that. I like to watch while you are eating something.
 
TABBY CAT - Really?! Okay then. Meow.
 
ZEYNEP - Do you waiting for something here?
 
TABBY CAT - Yes. Meow. The woman of my life!
 
ZEYNEP - The woman of your life... Hmmm... But you are a street cat?
 
TABBY CAT - Meow, yes maybe so many pretty women passed my life, but this is different.
 
ZEYNEP - What is different with her?
 
TABBY CAT - Remember, you human beings say "love at first sight" for that feeling.
 
ZEYNEP - Oh, I think this is your "love at first sight"! I know this blonde... Lol.
 
TAWNY CAT - Is that Zeynep?.. What are you doing here?
 
ZEYNEP - I was chatting with your friend.
 
TAWNY CAT - Meowww! No! He is not my friend. That is so boring! He is not leaving me alone! Meow, meow, meow!
 
TABBY CAT - What's matter with you?! I love you. I want to be the father of your children!
 
TAWNY CAT - Pooh! You are a ragamuffin! How will you be a father? How do you get the responsibility of a family?!
 
TABBY CAT - Zeynep helps us, meow.
 
 
TAWNY CAT - Huh, Zeynep can only help herself now. She was wrapped around like an owl till the morning last night at her home. She can't sleep. She is sick!
 
ZEYNEP - Yes, sometimes I have very difficult nights. I am trying to manage this sickness. Sometimes I have just a limited energy to work. So, yes, I can't help you. Meow. 
 
TABBY CAT - Okay then, the lovely fat women around can help us.
 
TAWNY CAT - Hell no!.. You are so rude! You are sooo selfish! You only think yourself! I can't do with a man like you!
 
TABBY CAT - What did I do now? Meow?
 
TAWNY CAT - You didn't say "May you recover soon" for her!
 
TABBY CAT - Oh, I am sorry. May you recover soon Zeynep.
 
 ZEYNEP - Meow. That is okay. Thank you...
 
TABBY CAT - Hey lovely woman, trust me, I can be a good householder. Try me!
 
TAWNY CAT - What about materfamilias?
 
TABBY CAT - Meow Zeynep, look at her, she never makes my work easier! Grrr...
 
ZEYNEP - I think you need a couple therapy.
 
TAWNY CAT - Hell no!.. I don't turn a hair for him! I am comfortable in this garden. Look at around Zeynep. Flowers, flowers, a lovely pool, lovely people, delicious foods. What else a cat want more?
 
TABBY CAT - Of course a father for her children! Meow!
 
TAWNY CAT - Get the hell out of here! Grrr... There are a lot of children of yours around! I don't want your children. I don't want a poor life!
 
TABBY CAT - Hey, where are you going?
 
TAWNY CAT - It is non of your business! Don't come here anymore! I don't want you! I will give a rich handsome guy a lot of sons one day! Maybe tomorrow! I donno, maybe tonight. Hehehe!!
 
TABBY CAT - Sniff... You broke my heart badly. Meaeaooowww...
 
ZEYNEP - I am so sorry for you Tabby Cat.
 
TABBY CAT - See, she's gone! Meooowww!..
 
ZEYNEP - I wish I could do something. But she is very decided.
 
TABBY CAT - I just wanted to be a father of her children. Think about that: Children from a lovely blonde and a handsome guy like me. Meaooowww, sniff...
 
ZEYNEP - Hey, this is life. The most valuable thing is to be healty in this world. Maybe you will meet another lovely woman soon. Let's wait and see. Meow.
 
TABBY CAT - Really? Can I meet a lovely woman like her soon? Sniff...
 
ZEYNEP - Sooner or later. Believe me.
 
TABBY CAT - Okay then... But I still want to try my last chance for her. I will be here tonight.
 
ZEYNEP - LOL.. I mean meow, lol. Okay, don't forget to look at my windows sometime okay? Maybe I will send you a slice of cheese tonight.
 
TABBY CAT - Oh, thank you Zeynep. I love you!
 
ZEYNEP - I love you too. Bye...
 
 
      Happy Father's Day to you!!
 
6月8日

Smoke kills...

 
As some of you know, I quitted the smoking about two months ago and now I still feel the nicotine taste in my mouth sometimes. And sometimes I smell the nicotine even in non-smoking places. Now neither me nor my guests don't smoke in my house. The other thing, my scent became sharper more than ever and even if some people who smoke pass the street, I can smell it, lol. On the other hand, I couldn't heal completely. The pollens are still killing me off. Some of weird space friendship ways too. As I said before, I have not so much explore friends now. I don't add some spaces, I don't try to find some good space friendships also, as I did before. I am here for years and I have enough experiments to understand something. Sometimes some spacers are inviting me though. I accept some of them. If they are active spaces, that is okay with me. By the way, I accepted some spaces recently, but there is still no comment by them. When I invited some spaces, I used to leave a thank you comment. When you added my space, you didn't oblige me something. Politeness doesn't humiliate you. Diplomacy is better and healty than discrimination. Besides, one of that spaces is my ex-space friend. I think I will not keep some spaces on my list from now on; if there is no action, if there is ignoring or any other disgusting ways... I have enough experiment to have some blogging principles here. Anyhow, I can"t pass the "comments quote" here. I just reach some comment numbers, some friends doing some weird things and my list is losing blood one more time. It was always the same.
 
This spring was so difficult for me. It is summer now but I am still not fine. Sometimes I feel so good and eat some foods like fish and I drop like a rock again. Sleepless nights, dispiritedness and boredom. I have never been sick a long time like this. It is weird though, I didn't even catch cold for more years, I always trusted my immune system but I don't know why, I can't heal completely now. Recently, I changed my drinking water, but it is still the same. Last night I slept well though. I am good by now today. But this allergic reactions appear at nights. You can't do anything productive but just trying to overcome the crisis. I am sleeping less but it gives me some plus time. So I can do so many things all day long.
 
I must say, sometimes I feel like I can smoke just one cigarette, then to forget it. When I finished a working, when I was so tired, when I listen to a great music... My favorite is AC/DC nowadays. Those guys are really great and I have an MM3 by them yet... But even they couldn't make me smoke a cigarette, lol. I am leaving you with an interesting video. Have a nice week!
 
 
   
FUNNY SMOKE KILLS - Watch more Funny Videos
 
5月25日

Have a relaxing week!

 
   
 
5月23日

Have a relaxing weekend !!

 
  
 
 
As you see in the pictures, I got my new baby camera recently. They changed it with a new higher model (PL50) and they didn't ask me some more money. I think, it was a nice gesture. Anyways, my new camera slept in her box till today. Today was a beautiful and... busy day. After work, I changed. No bra, no sock, I was now totally free! So I could play with my new toy a little. I took a picture of myself from the mirror first, then a tree from my kitchen window. While I was drinking a glass of nice wine, I made a great salad for myself. When the breams are cooked in the oven, I took a final picture for you and began to eat heartily with sounding wildly. You wouldn't like to hear that sounds. One moment, I noticed the eye of the bream. It was looking at me in a weird way, lol. I said "Come on, you ate so many fishes till you die, now I will eat you! But still I am sorry because I ate you." While you are reading this lines, I will be sleeping like the cat in the following video. Now I can rest or sleep whenever I like. Because no water noise all night long from the next building, no high heeled shoes noise all day long also. Hope it goes like that always. But yesterday there was a cleaning woman in the next building though. I heard some hellish high heeled shoes noise while she was working. Which woman wear high heeled shoes while cleaning a building dear, huh! 
 
 
  
 
Zzzz... Have a relaxing weekend !!  Kırmızı kalp
 
5月15日

The latest problem that crops up intermittently without ever being resolved!

 
I said the latest, because I had a lot of endless problems that crops up intermittently without ever being resolved about for the 30 years in my life. After the latest military coup, my life was ruined bit by bit and now the remain is just chaos, confusion, cruelty and badness. I don't know, I don't take myself so important, like they did to me. The house is the shelter of people. When I moved this house, I thought that I will have some peace in my personel life anymore, not a hell like before. The moving story was a tragic one, then the leaking story was for 7 months, the listening to the otantic music all night long by a neighbor was for months, the running water noise trouble from the next building began almost one year ago and it is still going on. My new camera had a flash trouble, so it will be changed till 26 May. I have a friend's camera though but I don't feel to take some pictures now. I didn't heal yet completely about the pollen allergy too. This spring is really passing by with some heavy things to me.
 
For my camera, there is nothing to do but waiting. But the running water trouble from the next building is messed up everything in my daily life. When the trouble began, I waited a little, I thought maybe they fix it someday. But it went on for a long time and I went there and asked them about it. They were so kind and said: "Why you waited to ask it by now, we would fix it soon. Don't worry, we will fix it right away." I waited a little, but they didn't fix that troubled tap. It was weird, plus, there were a lot of high healed shoes noisy too now. I went there a few times more. They were so kind again, and they promised that they will fix it soon. One or two times, some of my friends went there and asked about it. They were too kind still, they promised to fix it but they didn't.
 
The last week, I went there again. I was so nervous. There was another secretary. I told her the trouble again. The woman was so quiet, she went on her "working" on the computer while she was replying me. As if she was trying to seem busy. I elevated my voice, but the woman whispered: "There is a meeting inside, don't shout." I said "I will shout! Are you kidding with me? You ruined my life! You have no right for that!" And I elevated my voice more: "Who are in the meeting?! Come out! Even if there is a prime minister there, I will talk!" A few men came out. One of them was general manager who I met him before. I went on: "Why you don't fix the tap for months, you can't do that!" They were all so indifference. While they were talking to me, they were smiling. I shouted: "Why are you smiling? There is a trouble and you are insist not to fix that! Why you are doing this? Because I am a different citizen?" This time the general minister asked: "What is different citizen?" I said: "If you don't suit; blind, deaf and dumb, isn't it?!" This time, he asked his friends: "What is different citizen?" They were all smiling. I would blow my mind! I said: "I will fix it, I will pay the money. Please call a worker." They said "No, we are busy now." Sometime, he said: We are moving here on 20 May." I said: "I am really glad for that, but will it go on till that day?" He smiled weird, looked at the ground and said: "You will sleep well tonight." I said: "I grew up with this words: This is a noble nation... So I would like to see some noble acts, not these!"
 
Some of the dialogue pieces from those noble acts:
 
- The tap is broken, we will fix. (But no.)
- Don't worry, we will turn off the valve before we leave the building in the evening. (But no.)
- We are tenant, go to the landlord.
- Go to the police...
 
Well, I slept well that night as he said. But the second night there was really a weird thing while I was trying to sleep. I would just fall asleep, there was a sudden noise and I woke up between sleep and wakefullness. It went on about 20 times and I used the ear plugs enforcedly. The next day, I woke up with the running water trouble again. Maybe I would call the metro government about that. But I couldn't reach their phones and so I decided to send an e mail. I summarized the trouble shortly, that was all I can do... I got an e mail from them soon. They were saying that there was no trouble in that address. I replied them: "I have witnesses about that. By the way, there was no running water noise while this e mail traffic in a weird way... So I said them, "Yes, in this short time, there is no trouble." But just after I sent that e mail, the running water noise began again. So I sent another e mail and explained the problem one more time.
 
Then a man called me from the metro government. He said that there is no trouble in the next building. I said: "What is that now? A sham?.." That moment, I lost the connection. Then the phone rang again. The man said: "Did you say 'sham fight'?" I said "Yes. There is a problem obviously and some people are insist to continue it." The man said that he will come to the building and will see it with his eyes. So he came, asked me something, then went there. A little while after, he phoned me: "Yes, there was a trouble about a valve, as I saw, they fixed it." I said: "Yes, I heard some repair noise too in the mean time." He added: "Besides, their water was cut by us, because they are moving." I said thanks.
 
The last night they moved. I was so tired and went to bed early. But just after the midnight, I woke up with that running water noise again. I would cry. It was a really bad night. This morning, I sent a message to that government employee and said what happened. If the valve was fixed, and if they cut the water, how could it run now? He didn't back to me still, but just now there is no running water noisy. I don't know what will happen then. I am so tired and upset.
 
The following picture is from one of my internet surfing. I found very interesting and named it: The picture of the modern primitive... 
 
 
5月7日

Let there be life!

 
   
 
 

My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE.
"If you're going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished cleaning."

My mother taught me RELIGION.
"You better pray that will come out of the carpet."

My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL.
"If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!"

My mother taught me LOGIC.
"Because I said so, that's why."

My mother taught me MORE LOGIC.
"If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you're not going to the store with me."

My mother taught me FORESIGHT.
"Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident."

My mother taught me IRONY.
"Keep crying, and I'll give you something to cry about."

My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS.
"Shut your mouth and eat your supper."

My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM.
"Will you look at that dirt on the back of your neck!"

My mother taught me about STAMINA.
"You'll sit there until all that spinach is gone."

My mother taught me about WEATHER.
"This room of yours looks as if a tornado went through it."

My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY.
"If I told you once, I've told you a million times. Don't exaggerate!"

My mother taught me the CIRCLE OF LIFE.
"I brought you into this world, and I can take you out."

My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION.
"Stop acting like your father!"

My mother taught me about ENVY.
"There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents like you do."

My mother taught me about ANTICIPATION.
"Just wait until your father gets home."

My mother taught me about RECEIVING.
"You are going to get it when you get home!"

My mother taught me MEDICAL SCIENCE.
"If you don't stop crossing your eyes, they are going to get stuck that way."

My mother taught me ESP.
"Put your sweater on; don't you think I know when you are cold?"

My mother taught me HUMOR.
"When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me."

My mother taught me HOW TO BECOME AN ADULT.
"If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up."

My mother taught me GENETICS.
"You're just like your father."

My mother taught me about my ROOTS.
"Shut that door behind you. Do you think you were born in a barn?"

My mother taught me WISDOM.
"When you get to be my age, you'll understand."

And my favorite (not mine) : My mother taught me about JUSTICE.
 
 
 
 
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5月4日

Alone again, naturally...

 
Do you know that song? Gilbert O'Sullivan sang it years ago. If you didn't heard "Alone again, naturally" yet, you may search it on You Tube videos. When I revised my friends list again, I remembered that song... When I began to this blog journey, I was so happy and excited. Internet world was so shiny and immense in every way. Then I began to have some friends. Frankly, it was not easy to find some friends as a foreigner. Besides, I realised soon, I had a very little chance between the other "foreigners". I don't know why. I am not a wall flower, I am not one step ahead like somebody, I can't know. On the other hand, as I said before, I don't add value with nationality, education or sex to people by now in my life. I mean, I am not a segregationalist. But people are thinking that they must be segregationalist secretly. So their games are so elaborate, like professionals. And actually that is a kind of crime against humanity. Let's face it.
 
There were always some "friends", but the things became unbalanced at every turn easily and I was pushed to the loneliness again and again in this space journey. Now when I looked back, there are always the same names. That "untouchable" group was on my friends list too, except "Kuskulana S." once upon a time. We commented to each others blogs, I always replied their comments politely. Kuskulana S. didn't accept me as a friend, that was okay, at least, he didn't close to harm. But the other people in that group are really know their businesses. They are coming very friendly, but beginning some covered games soon. I don't know why, they believe that I have to double up with respect, fear and admiration before them. Sorry but I never did like that before some silly nuts by now, why I have to do it now? Look at my profile, if you trying to do something bad like that to an enlightened person, who knows what do you do some people you don't like around you...
 
I am all the same. My posts, my personality, my all things are so clear. Your soften up the enemy game is so wrong. If you are doing something like that to an enlightened person, who knows what do you do "some" people around you. I can see that hate crimes easily, I am a psychologist. I can see the badness easily, I am an author. And not a fake one... I see some profiles around. They say "published author", or "licanced psychologist". Of course it must be published to be an author, of course it must be licanced, to be a psychologist. I especially "met" some funny psychologists here, they were acting like a walking desister on to me. And they are in that group too. I think that group got moldy too much. Can you imagine a psychologist who try astrology in her space?..
 
This sectarian violence was in always in the similar ways. Public humiliate, ignorism, to arouse the jealousy efforts in some primitive ways and to act very friendly for a while, then cut the water and leave in the troubled waters, etc. As soon as I said something about that, they posted a blog about me screaming and they clapped to each other and laughed nervously. I lost some of my old friends here in that noise. They were with them even if they knew I was right. That was okay, I could have some new friends. I added some new profiles and it is weird, I always lived the same things. The game was the same but the players were different. A few times, I revised my list. But it is weird, there was a different magnet and it worked all the same and my new friends gave up to leave comments to my space soon and jumped on to their side. That group always "won", whatever that is.
 
Now, with this new space changes, we can see almost all activities on our home pages and on the profile pages. So if you commented a blog, maybe two times sometimes, and if that spacer ignored you with insistence, you can see it clearly. Last night, after the midnight, I woke up with that running water noise again. I thought maybe I can do something on internet. Suddenly I saw that was the same ignorism and the tricky ways. But why you are adding some people, if you will not leave a comment or anyway? You like comments, it is obviously. If you don't like comments, you could change your comment section. If you don't like some foreigners, you don't add them or you may set your space private... Look at that, I am foreigner in the place where I live, and I am foreigner on internet too.
 
On the other hand, when I added an entry, I am waiting for the comments excitedly. But that "group" is not like that. As soon as they post their entries, the comments are falling soon, like a rain. How come that the same people on the computer that time, funny. By the way, I added a new friend recently; that was cheap alien or something like that. He accepted my invite soon and I left a comment to his latest entry as a thank. But he never visited my space or he never left a comment to my space. But that group and he was very active on those days. Finally, I removed him from my list. He posted a PEACE entry then (I will blow my mind!)!! Yes, peace! I am sick with all those manias... And the last night, I removed so many "spaces" from my list. I am really sorry about that. Now, there is nobody left to add as a friend. Because all roads are going to that group in the end and I am suffering wrong. Besides, I don't need for one comment spaces to add. They are inviting me, then maybe one comment maybe not, that's all. I never see them again. I don't need some ghost spaces either.
 
I wish I could have some friendly regular friends here, but I am afraid there is no point to try for that. Yes maybe I have one or two regular friends here but that is not enough. I have to say that, one regular friend of me is surrounded by that group nowadays. Maybe he will leave my space not to stay alone in this space atmosphere. I saw that movie here so many times... Well, I have a very few friends now on my list. And I like comments. I can't try for some new friends here anymore too. I think I will struggle with my chaotic life and try to translate my latest novel Seven. I slept just a few hours the last night and waited for the morning to have breakfast. After breakfast, I wanted to sleep one or two hours but I woke up with a great high heeled shoes noise. My Samsung camera trouble is still going on. All those rudeness and unfair things in my life tired me. Maybe that was the point.. God bless the innocent people.
 
Sorry if there are some language mistakes on the post. I don't think I will reread and correct this post again. I need some time for the other things in my life. Besides this can be a "good" chance to insult my English for some people. Yeah, language barrier!
 
4月29日

The last cigarette of my life...


 
 
As some of you know, I cut back smoking to the seven cigarettes first, then I just smoked one cigarette in a day for a while. The above picture is my last cigarette of my life. I never thought that I would give the smoking up forever but it happened. It happens... Let me tell you the story. When I cut back for one cigarette in a day, I smoked it with my ice cold beer in the evening, before my dinner. But just a few puffes, that was all. One day, when I puffed one time, my heart tried hard a little while and I thought that I was tired and I crushed the cigarette out after one puff. The next day, it was the same; I thought I was tired again. On the other hand, all smells were too sharp; I thought I was pregnant... oqps, lol.
 
One night, I woke up with the running water noise again from the next building and I realised that I couldn't breath suddenly. I thought that it was psychological. Because that trouble is going on for months, they know I am very uneasy about that but they don't fix their broken tab. When the city pressure rose after the midnight, the tab crashes and the water is running till the morning. About 8 am, somebody turns the tab off. And this time, some high healed shoes noise is beginning from there and they are going on till the evening.. Anyways, that night was very hard for me. I could hardly breath, it was terrible. The next day, I had to go to a tech store for my Samsung camera. Two friends came with me, I was very sick. I gave the camera, said its trouble and asked a new camera. I have a right for that. But the young woman who talks to us was a little negative. When I said "I am so sick just now and I came by to solve this trouble", she said "Your sickness is your personal matter, it doesn't concern us." I said "If my new camera wouldn't have a trouble, I would rest at my home just now!" I said something, she said something, then she made a report about my camera. There was another person there and he was so polite though. If there is a bad police, it must be a good police too as always. He said that he would call me the next day but he didn't. I didn't call him for one week, finally when I asked what happened, he said that they have to wait a few days more to change my camera. I said okay, but today I asked to a friend for that and he called him. As they said, they will change my new Samsung camera in a few days finally.
 
When I saw that I have an allergy trouble, I couldn't believe that! Because I always believed in my immune system. I have a special nutritive and life style, besides I didn't have even flu for years, maybe 5 years... So I began to the allergy drug treatment. But drugs are not cutting out the symptoms, they just relieves. The symptoms are falling down and you can go on your workaday life. The crisis' are coming at night, towards morning mostly. I wake up and eat a banana (it includes high potassium) against a heart attack, then I am waiting for the morning. After an early breakfast, I rest for one or two hours. Then I am going on my day. By the way, nowadays I eat three times in a day; morning, noon and evening. As you know, I used to eat two times in a day. That was enough good for me. But now I need to eat three times in a day. Anyways, if you catch to the allergic asthma one day, you will see how a terrible sickness that is. Just terrible. To breath easily is a great thing. On the brighter side, I buried the smoking forever with this trouble. Not bad... But what will I do when I cursed for some one or something? I used to curse while smoking, lol!!!!!
 
That days some weird things were on in my life as always too. I am going to near a savory roll seller to buy some, I will just take some of them, but some women are taking them soon... I am trying to take another one, another woman is taking it right away! Finally, I laughed and stood back. I think a few times I lived something like those in some different ways. I said okay, and maybe I can write something about my sickness on my blog; I will just... Oh, my!.. Rhonda added a new entry about her sickness, and I said two sick people are too much for the blogosfer and I gave to add an entry up about that. I added a comment to Rhonda's space too and she was very active all those days. She added entries, so many people left comments to her space. The frindly approaches like this, strengthen the immune system...
 
By the way, there is a dry fruit named carob for some troubles. It has so many helpful characteristics: Analgesic, against allergic asthma, bactericidal, against bronchitis, against cancer, toxin cleanser for liver, destroyer for free radicals, strengthen the immune system, against germs, antiseptic, protective against cancer, exterminator nitrozamin, bronchia expander, against child paralysis. I hadn't eaten it for more years. After this sickness, I tried a lot. Maybe drugs maybe carob fruits, I don't know, I can go on my daily life for now. I think when pollens went away from around, I will heal completely.
 
As you see in the following pictures, I had some shopping for my hard days. One of them is a new vacuum cleaner. My old one was giving the dusts out into the air a little. As you see, my new little tiny baby vacuum cleaner is a little shy. It doesn't want to show it's face. Be patient, maybe one day, lol... The second one is a new MP3 player for my back room. So when I tried to rest, I will not hear the high heeled shoes noise by days. While the nights, I need a miracle for the running water noise. Yes. Who's life is God of chaos dear, lol!

 
 
 
4月17日

By the way, I quitted smoking!!!!!

 
 
Yes, I don't smoke for one week today. I just have one cigarette with my ice cold beer every evening; one puff, two puff, maybe a puff more, that's all, I crush it in disgust. As you see in the picture, I did my Friday shopping, so I will have some grrreeeattt breakfasts for the weekend. I took this picture with a friend's camera, because my new baby camera has some troubles. I think they will fix it soon, I donno... Anyways. Tango anyone?.. You still have time for that, because I am not a fatty girl yet!
 
Have a nice weekend Göz kırpma
4月13日

Things You've Never Been Asked

 
1.What color is your toothbrush? Blue, white and green.
 
2. Name one person who made you smile today: Not seen anyone today yet. It is morning... While I was replying this.
 
3. What were you doing at 8 am this morning? I was punching the wall. Yes. My wrist hurts just now. There is a running water noise trouble from the next building. I can't sleep well for two days about it again. It stops and goes on periodictly. They don't fix it for months. It is really torment! Somebody turns the tap off at about 8 o'clock am and begining to do cleaning as I understood the other bucket etc. noise. That high-heeled monkey doing something for a while, then the other high heeled monkeys marching on the stairs all day long. How can make a noise that much those high-heeled shoes, I can't believe that! I can't think in-line so many times...
 
4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago? I was picking my eyebrows. It is my daily routine.
 
5. What is your favorite candy bar? Milk with banana.
 
6. Have you ever been to a strip club? Yes.
 
7. What is the last thing you said aloud? I don't remember. I didn't said anything aloud for a long time, because I am so tired, lol.
 
8. What is your favorite ice cream? Chocolate and vanilla.
 
9. What was the last thing you had to drink? Tea.
 
10. Do you like your wallet? I didn't understand this.
 
11. What was the last thing you ate? I ate a very delicious pie with raisin in the breakfast today.
 
12. Have you bought any new clothing items this week? No.
 
13. The last sporting event you watched? A tennis tournament.
 
14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn? No flavor for my popcorn please.
 
15. Who is the last person you sent a text message to? I thanked for a friend's e-mail.
 
16. Ever go camping? Yes.
 
17. Do you take vitamins daily? Yes, but I made a break for it in the spring. There are very fresh and delicious fruits and vegetables around.
 
18. Do you go to church every Sunday? No.
 
19. Do you have a tan? No.
 
20. Do you prefer Chinese food over pizza? No.
 
21. Do you drink your soda with a straw? No.
 
22. What did your last text message say? "Here is the link you asked."
 
23. What are you doing tomorrow? It is all the same things. Working, internet, eating, thinking !!!?&"/%&<*!
 
25. Look to your left, what do you see? My waste book.
 
26. What color is your watch? I don't wear my watches for a long time.
 
27. What do you think of when you hear Australia? I don't think anything about it.
 
29. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru? Just hit the drive thru, if I can, lol.
 
30. What is your favorite number? 7.
 
31. Who's the last person you talked to on the phone? A bank officer.
 
32. Any plans today? It is an ordinary day as always.
 
33. How many states have you lived in? Just one.
 
34. Biggest annoyance right now? I need peace in my personal life. The home is the shelter of people.
 
35. Last song listened to? "Aerosmith / Deuces Are Wild"
 
36. Can you say the alphabet backwards? No.
 
37. Do you have a maid service clean your house? No.
 
38. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time? My black boots.
 
39. Are you jealous of anyone? No. I really don't know that feeling. Even if when some people who I don't like, reached some good things for themselves, I feel glad for them. But if they reached something that they didn't deserved, I feel nervous. It is not jealousy, it is something different.
 
40. Is anyone jealous of you? Yes. I don't like some sassy people...
 
41. Do you love anyone? Yes.
 
42. Do any of your friends have children? Yes.
 
43. What do you usually do during the day? It is all the same as I said before.
 
44. Do you hate anyone that you know right now? Yes.
 
45. Do you use the word 'hello' daily? Yes.
 
46. What color is your car? I sold my car. It is not most necessary for my life style now. Besides, some immoral people always damaged my cars in past. It is not nice to see your car in that way.
 
47. Do you like cats? Yes.
 
 
48. Are you thinking about someone right now? Yes.
 
49. Have you ever been to Six Flags? (???)
 
50. How did you get your worst scar? I have not a worst scar visible, lol.
 
Sleep well Ian.
Hope you have beautiful dreams.
4月7日

My new baby camera!!

 
Maybe you remember, I had bought a new camera and it was broken already, lol. Something happens just to me! Anyways, the seller had disappeared with together his shop, hahahaha, oh my God, sorry... Anyways, I was using my friend's camera for a while. Yesterday, I bought a new "baby" camera for myself. It is a Samsung L110. Nice one. My first picture was a wise parrot with it. I talked to him, he answered me with his eyes. Really. Then, we went out and I took a picture from inside the car. It is my friend's car. She had a terrible car accident years ago and she just can drive nowadays with my helping. After my shopping... Oh, by the way, I bought a nice baby iron too. I think my old iron is pregnant, when I began to iron, it's water is coming. So, now I have a virgin iron, lol... After my shopping, we worked on parking. We parked a lot of places, between cars, in the big parking garages, near some roads, in the little parking lots, everywhere that we saw, we parked. Sometimes I got out and assisted her. It was rainy and I think my hair loved the rain drops. It is healty for hairs, you know. My friend was so nervous, we got tired so much but it was a good working for my friend. Maybe this pictures which taken with my new baby camera are not too good for now but okay, I will learn how to take better with it.
 
 

 
3月16日

New messenger... Sigh.

 
I tried to upload the new messenger yesterday night but I couldn't. When it said % 100, it fell 99-98-97 immediately and so on, I mean it went back immediately as soon as it reached to % 100. I tried a few times again but it was all the same. It says "You clicked cancel, so bla bla." I never clicked on cancel button or any other thing. I don't know what happened but I am afraid there is something bad on my computer now. Some files disappeared, some files appeared, I can't listen to radio, they are not streaming well and it is really terrible to listen to a music like that. Maybe the radio thing is not related with that process, maybe it will be okay tomorrow. But now I have not a new messenger and I am really regret that I tried for this change.
 
I don't think that I can ask someone help for this problem. Hope, I didn't lose an important file...
 
3月13日

Today is 13 Friday!

I couldn't open my home page all day long.

And I can't open my messenger too!

What the fu*k is going on here?!

Valuable Vocabulary Chart:

Greetings -- "How the fu*k are you?"
Fraud -- "I got fu*ked by the car dealer."
Dismay -- "Oh, fu*k it."
Trouble -- "Hell, I guess I'm fu*ked now."
Aggression -- "Fu*k you."
Disgust -- "Fu*k me."
Confusion -- "What the fu*k...?"
Difficulty -- "I don't understand this fu*king business."
Despair -- "Fu*ked again."
Exasperation -- "For fu*k's sake."
Enjoyment -- "This is fu*king great."
Hostility -- "I'm going to knock your fu*king head off."
Stupidity -- "Geir Bergerud is a Fu*kwad!"
Incompetence -- "He's such a fu*k up."
Ignorance -- "Fu*k if I know."
Displeasure -- "What the fu*k is going on here?"
Lost -- "Where the fu*k are we?"
Disbelief -- "Unfu*kingbelievable!"
Retaliation -- "Up your fu*king ass."
Surprise -- "Fu*kin A!"
Surprise -- "Well, I'll be fu*ked."
Suspicion -- "What the fu*k are you doing?"
Contempt -- "Fu*k you and the horse you rode in on!"
 
LATEST UPDATE: Today is 14 Saturday!.. F*cking famous quotes:

"What the fu*k was that?" -- Mayor of Hiroshima

"Where did all these fu*king Indians come from?" -- General Custer

"Where the fu*k is all this water coming from?" -- Captain of the Titanic

"That's not a real fu*king gun." -- John Lennon

"Who's gonna fu*king find out?" -- Richard Nixon

"Heads are going to fu*king roll." -- Anne Boleyn

"Any fu*king idiot could understand that." -- Albert Einstein

"It does so fu*king look like her!" -- Picasso

"How the fu*k did you work that out?" -- Pythagoras

"You want what on the fu*king ceiling?" -- Michaelangelo

"Fu*k a duck." -- Walt Disney

"Why?- Because its fu*king there!" -- Edmund Hilary

"I don't suppose its gonna fu*king rain?" -- Joan of Arc

"Scattered fu*king showers my ass." -- Noah

"I need this parade like I need a fu*king hole in my head." -- John F. Kennedy

 
 
HAVE A NICE WEEKEND!! Göz kırpma
 

3月8日

Have a peaceful Sunday

 
   
 
3月1日

The first day of spring!

 
 
 
It was a sunny and nice morning. I opened the windows and read some news on internet. To breath a fresh air is really great... I couldn't sleep well the last night because of the running water noise though. (For new friends; there is a running water trouble from the next building but they don't fix a tab for months.) What can I do, that is a government building and I think this government doesn't like me, lol. Actually all government types passed in my life but no one loved me, sniff. But I am still sanguine for peace..... Aarrrrgggghhhhh!!!
 
Anyways. Today I will make good all my wounds for the next week. Maybe a little blogging, a little cooking and resting. I will make some mashed patatoes, grill chicken and green salad for dinner. But before that, a glass of wine would be great. I don't plan to watch TV today. Just music, just classic rock! I don't listen opera for a long time because my CD player is broken. But not bad, I don't know why, I don't feel to want for. Opera concerts was a part of my free times though, since my school days. One opera, one rock. Now it is just classic rock. There are so many great classic rock radios. I have a great list about that.
 
The clock in my TV room was broken a few weeks ago. You know what, there are a lot of mirrors and clocks in my house, because I am a narcicist. LOL. Well, hello?.. Hımmm... When I saw a clock seller by the wayside in a cold day, I thought that maybe I can help that seller if I buy a clock from him. Maybe it will broke in a short time but I said it is okay. I picked a cheap one and paid the money. Then I asked him: "Did you wind it?" He said "Yes, but wait a little." Then he looked at his cell phone -Oh my God, it was a latest technology!- and said "It is okay." I was stand in bewilderment. I haven't a cell phone like that?.. I put the new clock on TV, yes, it was not bad but it had a horrible tick tock. So I put a whiskey glass over the top of it, now it was okay.
 
That night, I watched a movie on TV. A Flemish youth film. An autistic young boy and his troubles in life. He had a great new technology cell phone too. He was playing some interact games on computer sometimes. After the movie, I saw once again, primitiveness and high technology are side by side in this century. I am afraid it will be worst... The poor young boy was just trying to survive, but the other "normal" young people were always teasing him, ridiculing him, stealing something from him. Finally, he killed himself. His mother was in a deep pain and she talked on some TV programs to make a point of autism.
 
Oh, I had a little shop too, the last week. There are still some discount sellings around on dress and finery. I went in a clothing store, I don't like crowded though. The prices were mind boggling. There were some written tee shirts mostly. I asked the seller boy "All store is that price?" He said "Not the store, just tee shirts for sale in that price." Nice. I smiled... The man was very handsome like a movie star. Nice blue eyes, real blonde, long hairs... I said real blonde, because so many guys are dying their hairs like that... He had a nice body; tall and athletic. A fine dress also... I picked a few things without a writing on them and went near to pay desk. One moment, a middle aged woman asked him: "What that writings mean on the tee shirts son?" "The son" looked at the writings and began to bethink. I said "Seal hunter, fox hunter and so on..." There was a big Canada writing under them with capitals. The woman left the things with a great disgust and went out. The handsome guy also, wore a "nice" furry topper and said the cash girl: "I am going out to smoke." After I paid the money, I went out too. The blonde was drinking a glass of tea and smoking near the door. He ignored me, I didn't care of it. But I would like to say him "Hey man, Canada is hunting the rich students in Istanbul now..." Lol... Hope Canadian explore friends don't get angry with me. Oh please, it mustn't be too hard to keep friends because of some thoughts.
 
I have, again, some new explore friends here. Hope we have a peaceful blogging. I am a honest and open minded person. And I like honest and open minded people too.
 
Have a Happy Spring and have a great week ahead!!
 
2月25日

One hundrd things about me.

 
SHARE:
 
1. Last beverage > Tea.
2. Last phone call > It was a wrong number. But she was looking for another Zeynep, lol.
3. Last text message > It was a counseling thing.
4. Last song you listened to > Queen / Under Pressure (With David Bowie).
5: Last time you cried > The day before yesterday morning.
 
HAVE YOU EVER:
 
6. Dated someone twice > (I didn't understand this.)
7. Been cheated on? > Yes. (?)
8. (Where is this item Ian?)
9. Lost someone special? > Yes.
10. Been depressed? > Yes.
11. Been drunk? > Yes.
 
LAST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
 
12. Blue,
13. Black and white,
14. White. Lol...
 
15. Made new friend? > Yes, in spaces.
16. Fallen out of love? > Yes.
17. Laughed until you cried? > No.
18. Met someone who changed you? > No... Oh, once upon a time, once.
19. Found out who your true friends were? > Yes, always.
20. Found out someone was talking about you? > Yes.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list? > Yes.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life? > Just a few.
23. How many kids do you want to have? > I didn't want to have kids in my life. It was a voluntary decision.
24. Do you have any pets? > I used to... Now I love my friend's pets.
25. Do you want to change your name? > No.
26. What did you do for your last birthday? > Nothing.
27. What time did you wake up today? > About 8 am.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night? > I washed up a pan, then I applied a cosmetic cream to my hands and I drunk some water before go to bed.
29. Name something you cannot wait for. > To see my latest novel Seven in my hands as a book! But I know I have a very difficult job on its translation. I have a very long way about it. Sigh...
30. Last time you saw your father. > A few years ago.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? > I donno... I wish it could be possible.
32. What are you listening to right now? > The Beatles / Bithday.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? > Yes.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? > Some political news.
35. (Where is this item Ian?)
36. What's your real name? > Shsss... But my last real name is a state in United States, lol. My father's name is Jesus also. I am not kidding.
37. Relationship status? > Single.
38. Zodiac sign? > Cancer.
39. Male or female? > Female.
40. Elementary School? > Hurriyet in Ankara. It means freedom.
41. Middle School? > Anıttepe in Ankara.
42. High School? > Anıttepe in Ankara.
43. Hair color? > Dark brown.
44. Long or short? > Shoulders.
45. Heigh? > 5'9"
46. Do you have a crush on someone? > Yes.
47. What do you like about yourself? > To be fair. If I can't to be fair on something, I hold the scales even, at least.
48. Piercings > No.
49. Tattoos > None.
50. Righty or lefty > Righty.
 
FIRSTS:
 
51. First surgery > I was stepped on an ampul (light bulb) while we were moving in my childhood. I think a little glass piece stayed in my wound and I had a cystotomy years after. It was without narcosis and I had passed out after surgery. Then, I wore my shoes and went back home by myself. Lol...
52. First piercing? I said no. Lol. Is there any piercing temporarily like tattoo, I can try it, lol, lol...
53. First tattoo > No... Maybe I will try a "fake" tattoo this summer.
54. First best friend > I had a lot of best friends, but now I have no one.
55. First sport you joined > Instrument gymnastics.
56. First pet > Cat.
57. First vacation remembered > South East Anatolia by a black train with my father and mother. I was a very little child, but I can remember every details of that vacation.
58. First concert > It was an elementary school concert. I don't remember the name of the chorus.
59. First crush > (I didn't understand this item exactly.)
60. First alcoholic drink > Grandmother's beer. She was drinking it for her kidneys. The second one was my father's raki.
 
RIGHT NOW:
 
61. Eating > I didn't eat anything all day long but breakfast yet. I eat twice a day. But I eat a few pieces of chocolate at noon... I think I will make one or two toasted sandwiches with cheese and sausage for dinner.
62. Drinking > Water. I drink water all day long.
63. I am about to > My right kidney hurts for a few days. The weather is too cold and my feet are always cold nowadays.
64. Listening to > Bruce Springsteen / Hungry Heart.
65. Waiting to > Nothing.
 
YOUR FUTURE:
 
66. Want kids? > No.
67. Want to get married? Why not.
68. Careers in mind? > Seven, Seven, just Seven!
 
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
 
69. Lips or eyes > Both. And I always look at the ass too, hahahaha!!!!! But secretly...
70. Hugs or kisses > Both.
71. Shorter or taller > Taller.
72. Older or younger. > Ummm... Same with me.
73. Romantic or spontaneous > Both.
74. Nice stomach or nice arms > ?.
75. Tattoos or piercings > Neither, nor.
76. Sensitive or loud > Sensitive.
77. Hook-up or relationship > Relationship.
78. Trouble maker or hesitant > Hesitant.
 
HAVE YOU EVER:
 
79. Kissed a stranger > Yes.
80. Drank hard liquor > Yes.
81. Lost glasses / contacts > No.
82. Sex on first date > No.
83. Broken someone's heart > Yes.
84. Had your own heart broken > Yes.
85. Been arrested? > No.
86. Turned someone down? > Yes.
87. Cried when someone died? > Yes.
88. Liked a friend that is a girl > ?.
 
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
 
89. Yourself > Yes.
90. Miracles > Yes.
91. Love at first sight > Yes.
92. Heaven > I believe in either heaven or hell are in this world we lived in.
93. Santa Claus > No. But it is a nice fantasm.
94. Kissing on the first date? > I donno.
95. Angels > Yes. But my angels are not beautiful, lol.
 
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
 
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? > Yes.
97. Had more than one boy friend / girl friend at one time? > Yes.
98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever? > Yes.
99. What's the one thing you cannot live without? > Technology.
100. Posting this as 100 truth? > Yes. I swear. Lol.
 
Thanks Prenin.
2月19日

LOL...

 
I got sooo many explore friendship invites for a few days, it was amazing. But I didn't accept most of them because they were for one day spaces I think, there was nothing on their spaces. And I got so many PM's. I didn't reply most of them because I don't have that much time. I removed some of explore friends from my list again, because they must find another toys for themselves. Something is really disgusting and as I said before, I am a peace and harmony person and I need a peaceful blogging. I know it is not possible always in this virtual world too but I will let it go at that.
 
This morning I got an interesting PM and I wanted to share it with you... LOL.

 

"Dear Friend ,

I am writing following the impressive information about your profile through the website your capability and reliability to champion this opportunity. In my department, we discovered an abandoned sum of (TEN million US dollars). In an account that belongs to one of our foreign customers who died along with his entire family in APRIL,2004 .

Since we got this information about his death, we have been expecting his next of Kin to come over and claim his money because we can not release it unless somebody applies for it as next of Kin or relation to the deceased as indicated in our banking and financial policies but unfortunately we learnt that his supposed next of kin or relation died along side with him in the accident leaving no body behind to claim the money.

It is therefore upon this discovery that I and other officials in my department now decided to make this business proposal to you and release the money to you as the next of kin or relation to the deceased for safety and subsequent disbursement since nobody is coming for it and we don t want this money to go into the Bank treasury as unclaimed bills.

The Banking law and guideline here stipulates that if such money remained unclaimed after long period, the money will be transferred into the Bank treasury as unclaimed fund.

The request for a foreigner as next of kin in this business is occasioned by the fact that the customer was a foreigner and an in deigned cannot stand as next of kin to the deceased family. We agreed that 30% of this money will be for you as foreign partner, in respect to the provision of a foreign account, 10% will be set aside for expenses incurred during this transaction and 60 % would be for me and my colleagues.

Thereafter I and my colleagues will visit your country for disbursement according to the percentages indicated.Therefore to enable the immediate transfer of this fund to you as arranged, you must apply first to the Bank as relation or next of kin of the deceased indicating your private, telephone and fax number for easy and effective communication and location where the money will be remitted. Upon receipt of your reply, I will send to you by fax or e-mail the text of the application.

I will not fail to bring to your notice that this transaction is 100% hitch free and that you should not entertain any atom of fear as all required arrangements have been made for the transfer. You should contact me immediately as soon as you receive this letter.

I decided to contact you as you have products of interest in your part of the world where we can invest our own percentage to avoid peoples awareness as we are civil servants. We can conclude this operation within ten banking days.

Please keep this very confidential. Contact me for more information, all confirmation before you apply if you want.

May God be with you. Trusting to hear from you shortly. Peace and love always. REPLY TO THIS MY Email (odigonne20@hotmail.fr )

Best regards

MR JOSEPH ODIGONNE .TOGO."
 
 
I just wanted to add this space's link here but it was "noname" anymore and the link was blind. When I looked at that link a few minutes ago, there was a space for one day. There was nothing on that space though like so many others for a few last days...
 
2月14日

Cold and rainy!

 
I know I know, it is Valentines Day! Hope you all have a great Valentines Day like me, lol... Actually, it was a work day. Then I prepared a nice dinner for myself. Salmon trout and spinach salad. The wine was so delicious also. Then I ate a little cotton candy. You know it is not easy to eat cotton candy. There is still some cotton candy on my chin. I feel very naughty just now. Not bad, because I tried so much to feel like that, smile. Maybe I have to mention about the last week a little. It was busy! I was tired almost all the time! When I looked at my blog, to see some comments was nice. But I have to say that, there is a "funny" war in this space atmosphere. And that war is going on with PM's too. Some people surely like teasing. I told you, I am not too strong that much, I am just an only one, how can I take all of the troubles? The man is saying: "You are ugly, you are old." Oh my God, I am looking at the pictures of me and the mirrors for days, they are not saying like that?..
 
God damn!.. There is a broken car alarm for two days and it is not possible to consentrate to write this post. Between whiles... Now it stopped... If your car alarm is broken, you must fix or desactivate it. The running water noise from the next building all night long, the high-heeled shoes noises from both of the two sides all day long, broken car alarms from the street... This is a head, not a basket!
 
Anyways, an about midday, I made a break and went out. It was rainy but everywhere was so crowded. Maybe they were buying something for Valentines Day. Everything was so cheap. I bought a nice dark blue pants, a white turtleneck sweater, a brown blouse, hand cream, hair conditioner, a bunch of flower and (car alarm began) two bagels (simit) as you see the following pictures:
 
 
  
 
 
The bagels were looking (car alarm over) so delicious. Whenever I go out, I buy a few bagels and keep them on ice. A breakfast with them is great, of course after warm up them. After shopping, I ate something stand up. Then I spent some time in a coffee tavern. Their tea was so great. I always say that I can't make tea like them. I had two cups of tea and looked at people. Some people looked at me too, lol. A woman was smoking so much. I mentioned about my cutting back story but she didn't interested in it. I smoked one cigarette and went out.
 
The rain was stopped completely. I walked a little and looked at around. Sometime I saw a travesty. He/she was so beautiful and attractive. Maybe a little solarium or ski ten I donno, but her skin was looking very healty. Her decolletage was very brave. I couldn't see till the nipples though, lol, like Earth Mother, hahahaha!!!!! We smiled each other, she showed me a bag and said: "They swindled me!" I smiled again. Then I bought some (car alarm again!) cleaning agents from a market and came back home. I put the flowers in a vase. The flower-girl had said it's name though but I forgat it. If you know the name of this flower, please let me know. 

 
2月8日

FOR THE RECORD

 
I revised my space friends list completely from my main list. But I couldn't look at all of spaces one by one. I think some friends' spaces have some different name on that list. So, If I removed you by mistake, please let me know to readd again. If you are not my regular visiters, I can't know which one was you. Thanks.