2006

 1. My real name is not Zeynep Ankara. It is my writer name in literature. I am known with this name; my all books and the other writings anyway... Needless to say that, I use my real name as a psychologist. I have to, because my diplomas with my true name.

3. I have three birth date; according to my mother, according to my father and according to the legitimate records. It is same year but 1-7-10 July.

4. Yes, Cancer but I don't believe in horoscopes. Nevermore, I read it sometimes.

5. I had a dream... I will have celebrated to my 40.birthday on an elephant. It didn't happen. Maybe I will do it on my 50.birthday.

6. I am an only child. And I have no child.

7. I had no toys in my childhood.

8. I am a real off white... Ha ha!

9. I am 5'9".

10. I am myopic and always used glasses.

11. I am a hard smoker.

12. My intuitions are strong.

13. My favorite seasons are spring and autumn.

14. I forgat to painting but my paint brushes are still remaining in a cabinet.

15. I forgat to playing guitar but my guitar is still remaining behind the door.

16. Sometimes I like to have an edge on.

17. I experimented almost everything in life.

18. I like either tramp or work.

19. I like rock and opera.

20. I would like to be a rock star.

21. I would be a good dress maker.

22. I would be a good cook.

23. I like silver or some imitation jewellery.

24. I like dance sometimes.

25. I like sound check atmospheres in bars.

26. I carry out some minor repairs in my home.

27. I like black in everything... dishes, seat, floor... I always use dark glasses in summer, black half boot in winter.

28. I like water in the morning, cola in the afternoon, beer or cognac in the night.

29. I like chocolate and ice cream.

30. I like hot pepper either.

31. I like to taste to every culture's foods.

32. I eat two meals a day; in the morning and night. My favorite meal is breakfast. I read some books while breakfast.

33. I love cat, dog and elephant. I like to eat fish, lol.

34. There is a very special touched between animals and me.

35. I never feared from earthquake. Nature doesn't frighten me. Some people frighten me.

36. I talk with animals and flowers.

37. I like to give ear to the sound of nature.

38. I love to look at the sunset and full moon.

39. Children love me. We spoil together.

40. I am compatible within the families but I don't like to stay always there.

41. I feel sore about some unhappy partners who can't open up.

42. I am so patient and I don't like this side of me.

43. I see red rarely and I don't regret about it later.

44. I don't like some dirty tricks. I am so rancorous about it.

45. I don't like fat egos.

46. When I can't sleep, I image opera songs.

47. Sometimes I have some so weird dreams.

48. To be tired or sick don't freeze me up.

49. I am strong about physical pain. I had a gastric bleeding and partial paralysis two times in last ten years. I healed myself from all these diseases... at home, alone and unmedicated.

50. My little injuries knit as a plastic soon.

51. I am scared of intravenous injection.

52. Sometimes I feel myself as Zeyna.

53. I like to solve problem.

54. I don't like shopping.

55. I like to discover something new inside the life.

56. I have no close friends.

57. I like to meet some new faces.

58. I like to help some people that I don't know.

59. I believe that there is a tragedy for everyone in life.

60. I keep my promise at any rate. If I will not, I tell why I can't.

61. I abhor exploitation and fakery.

62. I keep away from liars, even if they are likeable.

63. If it is too necessary, I can say lie.

64. I am scared of racists. Especially I try to keep away from ignorant racists. But it is not possible so much time.

65. I don't like some people who show complicated themselves needlessly.

66. Sometimes I feel deep pain about some experiences that I live.

67. If I really hopeless, I curse... Yes.

68. I travel single.

69. I sleep single.

70. I never liked to talk on the phone. I often forget my cell phone at home. I forget, I give up, anyway...

71. I always desired to be long established but it couldn't happen. I moved in a few years from every house until my childhood by now. So I got to live as a lodger.

72. Sometimes I get bored from myself.

73. I can love everyone who hadn't killed somebody or who hadn't tormented...

74. I don't like machos.

75. I feel disgust at some people who don't wash their hands after toilet.

76. I hate to fall in love. But it serves to lose weight... lol.

77. I am not "dipsomania" in love anymore. I forget right away.

78. I believe that the private life is sacred. I don't like nosy parkers.

79. I am a red blooded in love. I believe in fidelity about it.

80. I am jealous of my boy friend but I don't show it. If I feel an attraction between he and a girl friend of mine, I give up my boy friend. Girl friend is stay. But I give up her too later. Somehow, it happened so many times in my life.

81. I load my boy friend with my love. Finally, he goes.

82. I feel indisposed because of strident hoots.

83. While I write somethings, I feel myself in a too different dimension.

84. I would like to make a group psychotherapy session with a head of state, a ecclesiastic, a terrorist, a torturer, an artist, a student, a businessman, a lover and a domestic woman.

- I take a baby aspirin and a multivitamin every day.

- I like solitare and I can think deep while play it. I solved so many difficult problems with it.

- I have no tatoo or piercing.

- I have no vulgar superstitions.

- I hate violent movies.

- I believe that the senectitude is an illness. Maybe one day the science will find a way for it.

- I would be a good veterinary.

- I don't use credit card... Always cash!

 2008

I TRIED BUT I COULDN'T COMPLETE ALL THESE ITEMS. IF YOU HELP ME WITH YOUR QUESTIONS, I WILL..

  Welcome 2009!!

And.....

THE LAST CIGARETTE OF MY LIFE:

 April 2009