Zeynep Ankara: Asymmetric thoughts

Asymmetric thoughts about Nietzsche or whatever...

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 13:11:44 GMT

I see some articles about Nietzsche frequently nowadays. The man is still in the air in any period and he surely will be in the air always. Now his around is so crowded more than he was alive. Yes, he was deeply alone like most of free thinkers. I said "most of" but actually they were just a handful real thinkers in the history of thought. The loneliness of the creative thought, the loneliness of the creative people... As a thinker said, "With everybody and with nobody."

When I was in college, I took some lessons from philosophy department too. Nietzsche was one of my best philosophers for me that times, and still he is. An atheist is innocent more than some religious people sometimes... On the other hand, people always said that Nietzsche was unreadable. No, he was not unreadable in my opinion, maybe some people were a little stupid to understand him, lol... Or, maybe there was another weird dynamic for the occasion. Maybe some invisible hands were trying to push him into the shadow. Who knows, how many hands they were. Because, to destroy a genius, there must be so many thickheaded donkey's dirty hands.

Nietzsche was holding in execration for lie and pharisaism. If he lived in today's world, he would puke all day long, lol. If he lived in today's world and with its pretenders, maybe he could discover easily why he had an endless headache... Because this world is not complicated as before, just its instruments are different. And today's world needs more ugly people, not innocents. If you destroy the goodness, you bear just ugliness and inferiority... Actually I can see some Nietzsche's in today's world too. But they don't eat their brains on internet, lol, because they can't tolerate some virtual absurd people or absurdities (I am the obese, under the elegant princess icon, hahaha!!!). Maybe they are drinking till to destroy their memory cards everyday. No no, I don't want to think like that, maybe they are working in an ordinary job. No drinking, no smoking, lol, lol...

Now we are living in a different wild century. Faltering economy, radicalism, terror and wars cought every single person everywhere. Every single person under a huge fear and insecurity. So everything is covered by a thick cloud of dust and some innocent people are having some irrational troubles in that cloud. Technology and some other official secrets are using for some innocent people. This century is a violence and badness century and all effords for trying to put some innocent people or innocent ideas out of action. For what? For their morbid goals. But unfortunately innocent people are desperate in that open and latent wars, because they are surrounded by some different uglinesses. And that ugly people are not nonrigid, they have no vision, they are wedged between black and white, they are just like children.

As I said before, I have not a religious belief, I just believe in God. I don't need religions and I am ğood with that. But it is interesting, some "religious" people here, started a hidden Islam hunting on me from the beginning of my space journey. Most of them are doing well their jobs, lol. They are coming with a smile near me and going with some primitive ways. Frankly, if I were an Islam, it would be an ugly attack on me. People need some beliefs and some respect about that. Everything is open about me in my space. I am clear, I am honest and I am innocent as always. I know just one or two words about Islam and its prayers, and I am sure you too know that words and this is not make you Islam. And frankly, if I were an Islam, I could defend it best. Because I can defend best what I believed always. Whatever I believed I made it beautiful by now.

As I said before, religions have already stopped being a way of control. All religions got sick in the world and there will be no return period for that. Maybe a little while more, people will be confused about that and they will find a new way. I am hoping that, that new way will be a fresh page for peace... A thinker says "The values got sick and passion for colonialism captured people in the west of the world. In the east also the pharisaism razed the values." I agree. But I don't cut it like east and west. These troubles are for all of the world. Besides, there is nothing left to exploit in some parts of the world, some goverments need terror to sell some guns or to start some wars. It is disgusting.

And just from the beginning of my space journey, some people were insistent to ignore my author and psychologist sides here. Oh yes, I just have to entertain people or give some different recipes, then I have to shut my mouth up and sit. God damn you... I read a blog recently and left a comment. She was saying "sorry" to shared her problem and promising that the next blog will be fun. Hım. I said "You don't have to entertain people always", and I added my good wishes, but she never back to leave a comment to my space like so many people. What am I? A comment machine? Lol... I am spending some time for blogging with my poor eyes and English and getting just a little things. I want more, yes, lol... I want healty feedbacks, not pm's, just comments. I want some "healty" space friendships, not troubles. I always know what I want. On the other hand, when I experienced some latent discriminatory and racist ways, I am really getting nervous. Because I don't look at people with their speeches, religions or races. As a record, I am an individualist. (Some birdbrains trying to put me in a different theory here, I am aware of it too. If I were a communist, I would defend it well too. I told you, whatever I believed I made it beautiful by now. There are no lines about me and communism by now. I just can be a socialist hardly. Besides, most of the communists are living good more than me. See, I am not afraid of some words, like some people. If you look at my previous entries, you may see (Look At The Monkey's Backside! -to be apolitic, to be detached-), entry there. Why I have to explain myself again and again here dear?) So you are a "name" and a "personality" for me. I don't care how a "gent" or "rich" or from which part of the world. It is same in my real life too.

I always enter to an other spaces with the clean hands and I don't need some ugly approaches as everybody. I have some other spaces too with my psychologist side, but they are not in English. So there is just a psychologist personality in that spaces. (By the way, I had posted a funny cat video on one of that spaces recently. An ex-explore friend Monica too posted that same video, then removed me from her list. What a coincidence, what a coincidence...) Anyways, I am just an auther and blogger here, in this space. My auther side doesn't swallow the ugliness, sorry. I don't insult people, never, and I don't have to be a scapegoat. What a primitive thing this is. Because just some ordinary brainless people need scapegoats... Or maybe you are looking for a masochist for your weakness; but I am sorry, I am not... Hey, whisper me, what is your real problem? Lol...

Finally, some people know well how to lynch here. I am looking at their friends list and the comments on their blogs, they are all the same names. Those people are coming side by side sooner or later... Okay, that's it for now. Some friends removed me from their lists, so I need some new friends. Maybe I will look at some friends list or find a new way about it. Actually I have sooo many friends on my list but that list just like a ghost town, lol... Anyways, if you are a real peace lover, not a pretender, please add me as a friend.

By the way, I smoke just 10 single cigarettes in a day anymore. I made it!

Have a good blogging everyone!! With love and peace...

Copyrighted by Zeynep Ankara

Asymmetric thoughts about Lolita mania...

Thu, 02 Oct 2008 19:26:57 GMT

A middle aged shark falls in love with a plaice. The shark is veteran for love but this little lovely pussy deprives him of his senses. In the meantime, there is always a middle aged female shark in the picture. She has terrible sharp teeth too and she is hungry for love. This two sharks get married. Lady shark is happy, so happy. But the man shark's all desire is to be closer to the sweet pussy. Our flirtatious little sweet lolita also, is walking around with licking a candied apple. Her super-mini skirt is waving as a flag -I'm here, I'm here, come here- while she is walking. The man shark is almost blind with her pink pants. Ahahah, he can die for that flag... If that middle aged man shark is a sly dog, he can keep the relation with both of the women forever. But, no way! There is a sneaky self-seeker female sharp too in the picture now. And it is time of tragedy... You know the story.

And a Lolita lyrics by Elefant:

"Can you tell me what you're thinking?
i just melt inside your eyes
kiss me like they do in movies
modern child of the night

i was watching you for hours
standing there beside the pool
when you wear those pretty dresses
i forget the girl in you

run away, run away

lola is on the floor
she's wanting more
she's wanting more

lola is on the floor
she's wanting more
she's wanting more

am i wrong for loving lola?
am i wrong for what i think?
she is such a wicked child
painted lips, dirty knees

lola is on the floor
she's wanting more
she's wanting more

lola is on the floor
she's wanting more
she's wanting more

I hear the devil calling
he's waiting for my move
I shout out loud LOLITA
you are my heart and soul

my lola is on the floor
she's wanting more
she's wanting more

my lola is on the floor
she's wanting more
she's wanting more"

I was searching a word on Google and I saw a line between them today. "Little boobs..." Hımmm. I don't understand this man creatures, really. Boobs, small boobs, fat bottoms, small bottoms... What is the matter with you, as always... Then I saw some Lolita searchings. You know, actually this Lolitas are very young, as a child. So they have just a little experience for life and sex. What do the man creatures trouble with them? But the worst thing is about some oldy women who act like a lolita. Anyways. Our mater is, little, little sweet lolitas and some sharky men. They are falling in "love" with those little sweet candies and losing their minds totally. This little dollies are like a toy, like an air doll. So take an air doll and don't disgrace yourself this much... Sorry, was it wednesday???

Asymmetric thoughts about female vs male...

Thu, 28 Aug 2008 06:26:17 GMT

Did you like this picture?.. Most probably, yes. It is just like some cookery picture; fancy, a clean and beautiful image... so good to be true. They spray-paint all vegetables and other things on the table. After a "good" photoshop, it seems like a window from the heaven. If you began to cook yet in your life, you can be depressed... Yes, yes, you like the picture. It is beautiful as much as your dreams which never come true. You can imagine all of the picture. It is absolutely a beautiful woman. What an elegance, maturity and perfection! Maybe she did her family work all day and still does. She took a shower, dressed, painted and put something in the oven, now waiting for her children and husband quiet, happily and self-confident. After all a tired day, she has still her shoes, lol, they look confortable though...

Yes, yes, you like the picture. You like the picture if you are the son, daughter, sister, brother or husband. There is no trouble in the picture. The woman is just like a lady, not a chatterbox and also as if she can do everything for your survive and happiness. She looks not to need a great efford for it, as if there is a magic wand in her hand. Or, maybe there is an other woman behind the panel. Tired, ugly and bitchy... But we are used to see some dreamy pictures about women in the kitchen. But come on, which woman hoovers with her hair done? I will tell you now: An artist in an advertising campaign... Most women go into the kitchen like going to a war. They are already tired for shopping and cleaning and now have to cook something. When they finished their work in the kitchen, they have no appetite to eat something anymore too. Or some tired women eat too much unconsciously. You know well them with their plump hands.

I know, I know, you like the picture. Even if you are a woman. But to be a "real" housewife is not a thing you thought. And nobody mustn't need to be like that. Maybe that image too began to stay in the old pictures. Poor men, you have a hard row to hoe now. So you must really love your women. They are not your slaves, they are just in love with you and the other members of the family.

Here is a video about female vs male by Bruno Bozzetto. But I am afraid all these videos and other things are from a man's eyes usually. Because women are always keep busy by some other ways and very rare women can make a good showing in art, like the other areas. The other tragedy is; some women always "create" some troubles to the other women who are trying to open a way in science and art for themselves. Yeah, it is the way of their survive. I don't want to mention about that tragedies now, just watch the video and add your opinions please:

http://www.bozzetto.com/flash/fem_male.htm

Copyrighted by Zeynep Ankara

Asymmetric thoughts about lie

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 16:12:10 GMT

You injure at least one person with what you did, what you didn’t or when you didn’t hold the scales even. Sometimes the truth is so simple and confusing, You know it well but you can do anything. You just go your way not to touch to an other truth. But some people are always one step ahead of the others and they are always overconfident with a disguised rapacity and prejudgment. And one day you too realise that why some people are always one step ahead... Now, the life is not easy anymore. You can’t join to the majority who are in a mad stupid naivety too. Because they’ve already took place behind the big asses.

You have no chance but innocence and submission. The world turns into a podgy monkeys hell and there is no place to hide. One moment you stop over at all things and think: “I will fear... The day is just a day, not a gift anymore.” But don’t worry, everybody have fears like you. People have fears and the goodness will be because of fear like the badness... Between all these lie, deception and betrayal; you will try not to take the bait every day. You will try not to get stuck on the invisible traffic lights either. At the same moment, the people who drift into the fear and hopelessness in the world, will be in between the devil and the deep blue sea, like you. The devil is the terror, the blue sea is the war... Not only people, all guns, bullets, all tanks will bleed now... When bestial violance lay in wait sometimes, sneaky violance will replace it. All lay figures are for this illusion. You will just skip the game, if you can. It will be known where you are, so there is no need for panic, don’t run, don’t hide, you can’t keep your secret, don't struggle.

The history was a ringing in your ears. When you began to understand it, the ringing wore to an end. The enemies have to be, like the minorities. Otherwise how can we get along well between us?.. They always say like that. Because they are all lazy idiots, they don't want to find a clever way. The only effective fabric they know is this. So, this is our only world my love, so it was always cruel. So there was always wars. Water sleeps but enemy. All minorities are thankless rebels. So they are all stupid, they can't find out a way to do something by themselves. They need to be administrated and lined up. If you give more food -yeah, they are animals-, they get strong and want more, then presume our kindness... Never to omit fear inside of them and trouble on their shoulders. All curses will be for them. Don't worry, we can send in some good players to balance... Yeah, look, all deceptive pictures are for ya. Anyway, you will get the shaft on purpose... But somebody will not let it go at that and will follow the hounds. Now you f*cked up double! All false gods love the arena savagery. They all love to hold a feast in between this dogs of war too. Finally, maybe just deception and prodition will be on your plate. Eat it or not. If you can't pass your plate, just clean it periodically.

Desperation makes people act like an idiot. And its cure is not to give credence to fake signs. Because all signs will drive you to the wrong. Just birds and dreams will stay in your hand. But they can fool you too. No, still turn your back on death and loneliness. There will be always a very little light for your eyes, just see and set your face for it. Yes, go on, what are you waiting for? Ignore all those ugly faces, they always increase with broken mirrors. Ignore all those artificial troubles, sad laughes, false tears... There will be always some Brutus’ but what of it? You too quit as soon as things start going against him. You too, not to play the game. And believe me, there will be always some people who make fair weather first, but, yes, yes, just smile till then. One day, they will turn into some ungrateful scums though. Sad laughs, false tears... What shame... Now be sad. But not for yourself. See, what a desister, either monkeys or mankind are tired. However there was something like love... There was something like real faith. Something like God. Now there is just a big lie and all people are warshipers around it. Just because of fear. Sad laughts, false tears... But don't expect me not to tell the truth...

I am real, you are the lie.

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"God doesn't play dice with the universe..."

Sat, 17 May 2008 21:13:32 GMT

Asymmetric thoughts by Einstein:

You know Einstein, that mad theoretical physicist. According to a news, one of his letters dated 1954 is found recently. He says: "Religions are the expression of the human weakness." in that letter. You know Einstein, a mad man. He doesn't give credit to religions and religious believes, especially in his last year. All these concepts are childish, primitive fables as for him. According to The Daily Telegraph, this famous -mad- scientist is stressing a point importantly: "This fact will never change at all events with any forced or sophisticated explanation." Huh. People need to believe in God buddy?..

I told you, the man is mad. Anyhow, his opinions about religion and God were highly controversial once upon a time. When he said "God doesn't play dice with the universe", everybody had believed that he was a believer. So you fooled us Einstein, shame on you! The remain of my believes was God, you deprived me of it too, burn in hell!

Have a good weekend all.

Asymmetric thoughts about men

Wed, 23 Apr 2008 11:14:52 GMT

You know men. And men know themselves. These creatures from world, usually describe themselves with some powerful words. They are big, they are strong, they are perfect, they are the premier of all creatures in the universe. Well, maybe they are, I don't know how they think either, because I am a woman... In fact, I don't want to wrong, they have a difficult life maybe as much as women. They are tasked with lion hearted as soon as they came into the world. Their toys are guns, tanks, wedges. However girls have some aesthetic toys. Dolls, some kitchen materials, tedy bears. Okay maybe boys can have some tedy bears too. Little boys like to sleep with some sweet things after all that fighting of the day, lol... Girls play with their dolls, boys spray under the girls' laps with their water guns. The hard working life is begun. They begin to fight for life. Life is difficult. They have to make money, they have to start a family, they have to join some wars, all these are not easy. Life is difficult and short. So they have to race continually.

If a man rich or handsome, you can see some real dolls around them anymore. These women are very thin, mostly blond and tall, heavenly. They are just like a gold victory medal. Most of them are very silent and still, just like a toy. They usually cold as ice. And our heros turn into some poor devils against them. They are very weak and defenceless anymore. Life is difficult, life is too difficult. Even if they want to have neither fat nor thin wives who will organize their lives, these dolls are always take a special place in their whole lives. Young or old, most of men like dolls. Maybe we have to allow them to play with toy dolls in their childhood anymore. Surely life can be easier in the world like that; either for men or for women.

Men give complicated messages usually. So we interpret the signs falsely sometimes. We, women. You think you are thin enough as their desire, but they break to a fat bottomed girl in the twinkling of an eye. Oh, no! Okay, to put on weight is not difficult as much as to lose weight. Hooray, delicious foods, sweet life! When your boobs and bottom filled enough, you may fill your lips too anymore. Yipee plastic surgery and botox!.. But I told you this men creatures always weird and hard, it is not easy to read them as a book. When you turned to a portuguese man-of-war, maybe it is too late, because he already break for an old lady. What? An old lady? Yes, because men are back to their mothers ultimately.

Above picture inspired me to write these lines. Men too can comment this blog. Sigh. Lol. Anyways.....